Because I've had this journal since 2003 when I was in like 11th grade and most of these entries are embarrassing but there's no way I could ever delete them.

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When hinges creak in doorless chambers...
and strange and frightening sounds echo through the halls...
...whenever candlelights flicker...
where the air is deathly still...
that is the time when ghosts are present,
practicing their terror with ghoulish delight...


hehehehehe......disney in 5 more days!!!

HALLOWEEN!!!!!!

lol AJ thanks for the messages


guess what i'm doing in 3 more days!!!!!

going to see HANSON in orlando!!!!!!!! (courtesy amber and karen)

"Auburn is such an underrated colour. Daniel calls it 'fire engine ginger' but then Daniel usually has his head slammed in the refrigerator"

hahahaha that made me laugh for like an hour

...i'm not sure...

p.s. HANSON CD IS STILL MIA!!! if anyone has any information concerning the blue CD "Underneath" by Hanson...please contact Nikol ASAP

i'd be lying if i said it didn't bother me

i think that i desperately need to get a paid account on this thing!!! my icons are threatening to take over my computer!!!!

hehe

"I refuse to read Vittorio; that's like the bastard child that no one talks about because no one knows he exists."

uhhh all my lj posts just disppeared

louis!

"I realized aloud in the midst of saying it that even when we die we probably don't find out the question as to why we were ever alive. Even the avowed atheist probably thinks that in death he'll get some answer. I mean God will be there, or there won't be anything at all."

"There are too many other inexplicable things around us--horrors, threats, mysteries that draw you in and then inevitably disenchant you. Back to the predictable and humdrum. The prince is never going to come, everybody knows that; and maybe Sleeping Beauty's dead."

"To be this happy is to be miserable, to feel this much satisfaction is to burn."

"Finally those you love are simply...those you love."

"We live in a world of accidents finally, in which only aesthetic principles have a consistency of which we can be sure. Right and wrong we will struggle with forever, striving to create and maintain an ethical balance; but the shimmer of summer rain under the street lamps or the great flashing glare of artillery against a night sky--such brutal beauty is beyond dispute."

"None of us really changes over time; we only become more fully what we are."

"So we reach into the raging chaos and we pluck some small glittering thing, and we cling to it, and tell ourselves it has meaning, and that the world is good, and we are not evil."

"Sometimes hate and love serve exactly the same purpose."

"It's an awful truth that suffering can deepen us, give a greater luster to our colors, a richer resonance to our words. That is, if it doesn't destroy us, if it doesn't burn away the optimism and the spirit, the capacity for visions, and the respect for simple yet indispensable things."

and i have saved the best (my favorite quote ever) for last:
"A singer can shatter a glass with the proper high note...but the simplest way for anyone to break a glass is simply to drop it on the floor."

"Of course, Armand told me that he had protected me from this knowledge, hoping that I would not undertake a long journey merely for revenge, a journey that would have caused me pain and grief at the time. But I didn't really care. I hadn't tought of Lestat at all the night I'd torched the theater. I'd thought of Santiago and Celeste and the others who had destroyed Claudia. Lestat, in fact, had aroused in me feelings which I hadn't wished to confide in anyone, feelings I'd wished to forget, despite Claudia's death. Hatred had not been one of them." ~IWTV

...absolute favorite part

why am i attracted to this stuff???

can we say bullshit??? ashley are we going right after school tomorrow?

i think i want too many things...my expectations are too high and i wish too much...i am not happy with mediocre, it's not acceptable

i feel like i'm dying....i hate being sick

i'm talking to brendan....he imed me to tell me happy late birthday......i've only talked to him once on the phone for 5 minutes when he called to tell me to make jeremy back off...and that was in like september.....but since then i haven't talked to him since we broke up at the end of 9th grade...it's really weird and scary....i didn't think i was going to make it at first...but we've been talking for almost and hour...and it's not that bad....it is kinda sad really....he was like my best friend for 3 three years...it's sorta nice to talk to him and see what's happened...i dunno...as long as i don't actually like visualize who i'm talking to i think i'll be ok

so today i have done NOTHING....lol i played nintendo with my dad for like 5 hours and i finally beat super mario bros. 3! yay! lol i'm such a loser...then i decided to pull some pictures out and put more on my wall and look through stuff...i tried to be creative but it didn't work too well but i'm not done yet!!